Happy Christmas everyone!
I hope the Fatty …erm,..Festive Season has brought great cheer (or in my case lots of pounds!) to everybody. There were a lot of things that I have been busy with that I couldn’t really continue blogging Reverb 2011. But here I am trying to finish well.
WHO WAS IMPORTANT TO YOU?
Aside from my family, my different circle of friends have always been close to my heart. From my cellgroup family, my subzone chums and even ex-colleagues, also not to mention my fan girlfriends – occupy their respective (and revolving) space in my heart. But I think the person I cherished most of all this year was myself.
As someone who suffers from Wonder Woman Syndrome, the need to focus on meeting other people’s needs always takes a toll on me. I get burned out and sometimes resentful. This year was no different, but slowly I have learned to look for warning signs and to say “NO”. There were some hard truths I had to face, like I can’t always be there for everybody and that I am just one person. I think that this year I have learned more about boundaries I can cross and boundaries that are drawn for my own well-being.
WHAT DO YOU HOPE TO REMEMBER?
I hope to remember that I am a strong person. I hope to remember the kindness of others, and the opportunities that were opened to me. I hope to remember that I am strong and resilient. I hope to remember all the times that God has shown His love and mercy towards me. I hope to remember the times that I laughed and even the times that I cried – because of these experiences I grew into a better person.
WHERE DID YOU SPEND MONEY?
Cab fares – which is actually a testament of how busy I was. Cab fares aside, I spent most of my money for creative ventures. Like buying supplies and equipment. I am most proud of checking off items in my wishlist, I feel more of an adult.
That said, I also spent my money on presents and eating out. Building relationships is something that I am most concerned with, aside from the gift of time, I also like to share a meal with my friends or make something for them. For me, there’s nothing more fulfilling than being generous to others.
WHEN WERE YOU MOST SCARED?
I am bad at remembering negative stuff, so this question took me time to answer. The moment that I was most scared would be the time when I was renewing my Permanent Resident status, and the Immigration people asked me for extra documentation. This scared me because among my family members, I was the only they asked for extra documents. I didn’t want to lose my PR status or leave Singapore. My mind was restless for weeks, and I kept praying for something positive. Thankfully, it was renewed, although it may seem like nothing now, but I was seriously thinking of how I can remain in Singapore once my PR status is revoked!
WHAT QUESTIONS DID YOU ASK?
Questions about the direction my life is headed. Questioning my priorities. Questioning my previous decisions. I think I grappled with more questions about my future more than anything else. This year I didn’t manage to keep a regular journal so my thought processes were not really organized. There were moments when I just shut down the probing questions that I knew would reveal painful answers.
Have a Merry Christmas everyone!