Once the new year approaches, I have the habit of reflecting on what has happened during the year. It is something I started practicing the first year that I was in Singapore. Looking back, the previous year can be summed up in three words: FOCUS, FAITH & FANGIRL. This post will be all about FOCUS.
“It’s not what’s happening to you now or what has happened in your past that determines who you become. Rather, it’s your decisions about what to focus on, what things mean to you, and what you’re going to do about them that will determine your ultimate destiny.”
- Anthony Robbins
2011 was the year that my focus became a little less hazy. I realize what I love doing and what I don’t, what I say yes to and it has made a big difference in my life.
Having no focus during the first half of the year made me feel irritable and frustrated. I felt like I was spinning out of control but couldn’t pinpoint what it was that made me angry. It was as if I was in the eye of the storm, everything around me was being destroyed but I was still apathetic. I now understand that it was the fear in me that stopped me from focusing. The fear of focusing on the wrong thing – thoughts like failure plagued me.
Writing, Volunteering and Photography were my main points of interest this year while Blogging and Crafting took a back seat. I am so thankful for the opportunities that were opened to me and I feel that because of these open doors I was able to meet people who have inspired me to embrace myself and do what I love.
The clarity that I received while working through different projects with different people gave me a clearer purpose. Making tough decisions were easier for me because I have a firmer grasp on what I want.
I still would want to incorporate Blogging and Crafting in my life. I just love to create and be with people. I think I need to achieve the perfect balance between Self, Creativity and Community.
I value my solitude and my time to create. But my social commitments usually eat away most of the time I should be spending creating and just nurturing myself. I hope to be more precise with my focus and really learn how to say “NO”. Stop having the Superwoman Syndrome, like running out all the time trying to fix things.
I will strive for balance in all my interests and commitments. That is my hope for this year.