December is upon us! Wow isn’t that fast?
Even if I wasn’t much of a blogger this year, I would like to finish well by joining REVERB 2011 basically there are 31 prompts for each day of December and I am going to post on these topics every single day. Yes, I am back to daily blogging!
The first prompt can be found below:
If we’re talking about physical space, I have always spent New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day with my family. Two years ago, during New Year’s Eve my family and I were busy moving a couple of blocks away to our new home. Since it was only a ten-minute walk from our old flat to the new one, we spent a few hours carting our stuff from the old flat to our new place. The NewYear found all of us tired but watching the Chinese action movies being shown at Channel U.
Last year, I had a mild panic attack when the New Year approached. My 2010 was one of the most awesome years of my life and I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to top it off, that 2011 will be a letdown. For a moment I thought of writing New Year’s Resolutions (which I have never done) but then I was so good at self-handicapping that I managed to even avoid writing down goals for the year. I was psyching myself for a mediocre year.
Looking back, that fear was unfounded. From where I started full of fear and doubt but this year turned out to be better than 2010. Of course this year there was more emotional rollercoaster rides and really dark moments, until now I am reconciling clashing ideologies that cause conflict within me.
I wish I started off well, that instead of going down to the dark place I should have encouraged myself and wrote goals. I wish I had lesser fear and lesser negative energy around me. I wish that I wasn’t so tired. But it’s all in the past now, and I guess it made me self-aware.
I know that as the year draws to a close I will have the same feelings of panic and fear. But I hope I have learned my lesson, and learned it well.
PS: Gosh did I just blabber my way through a blog post, ,my apologies I have not written anything substantial in months, and my blogging mojo is not back yet. Please do bear with me.